Sunday, May 23, 2010

Makes No Friggin' Sense

*Big Sigh*

Okay, so my limited access to the internet is really starting to get to me.  You have to understand that at school I spend the majority of the time I spend in my room on my computer.  Yes, I can access the internet at Jamie's and the library (as yet unvisited by me).  However, there is another problem.  I am suffering from information withdrawal!  I don't have USA Today here at home.  Yes, I can get it at the library, but like I said before, I haven't been there yet.  Besides I've been at Jamie's house since Friday because we went to see a baseball game this weekend.

Okay, a little about the game first.  It was a lot of fun.  I've been to an Indians' game with Jamie and his parents before, but this one was a lot more exciting.  I've also been to a Lake County Captains' game (minor league) which was a lot of fun.  Anywho, we got club seats this time which was WAY better than just going out to eat before the game.  We ate sooo much food.  I'm sure it was bad for my figure, but really, who cares?  There was pizza, hot dogs, hamburgers, salad (which was actually very good, and I'm not generally a fan of salad), peanuts, cracker jacks, popcorn, ice cream, cotton candy, nachos... I could go on and on here, folks.  And the french fries were amazing!  

They did end up losing but they put on a good show for it.  They were down by 2 runs in the last inning with one out and a guy on 1st and 3rd when Shin Soo Choo got up to bat.  It was so much fun because they have all these cool little puns for him, like 'Here's lookin' at Choo kid' and 'I got Choo babe' (and they pasted his face in pictures to match).  Everyone was cheering and yelling Chooooooooooo (and I was yelling Choo Choo) and clapping and making a TON of noise.  He ended up getting another out though, but there was so much hope there.  They'd lost the last game I saw of them (against the same team - the Cincinnati Reds) and I was really hoping they could come back this time.  The next guy up (Kearns) hit what looked like a home run, but the other team caught it and it was all over.  It was kind of sudden.  But I really had a lot of fun, and I can't say that about a lot of sporting events I've been to (not that I've been to a lot of them, really).  

Afterward there was an amazing fireworks show that seemed to go on forever.  It really was a cool night.  Plus, we got Slider figurines holding O-H I-O signs.  Oh yeah, I almost forgot.  We also got a practice ball : D  We got there pretty early, when the Reds were practicing, and one was hit up into the club seats a few sections over and we went and got it.  Jamie was so excited.  : )

Other than this, I'm really hoping to get a job soon, somewhere, but not having a lot of luck finding anything, especially since I don't have the option of driving somewhere.  If I can't get a job, I may try to get an internship (can't remember if I said that in an earlier post).  Also, I set myself a goal for finishing this new book I want to write.  I've only written a short excerpt from it, but I have ideas.  I have yet to finish any of the books I've started or gotten ideas for.  But this one I set a goal for, so hopefully it will end up coming to fruition - I have until the day that I graduate with my BA (which should be May of next year barring any unusual circumstances) to finish it.  One of the things I really want to do in life is write.  And that includes writing at least one novel (hopefully more).  

I think I'm good for the research next fall and I have my columnist job.  Next year is going to be good, I think.  Plus my roommate seems really cool.  I just have to get through this summer without going crazy.  The good thing is that you don't need the internet to write a book (well unless you have to research) and it usually just ends up being a distraction from the writing, anyway.  So hopefully I will get a lot done this summer on that.  I'm thinking I should aim for 1/3 of the book by the end of the summer which should be around 100 pages or so.  I'm not really sure how much that is in a word document, though.  I'll have to see if it says anywhere online.  Oh, internet, how I need thee!

I don't have any rants prepared for today.  I'm pretty much crippled without my newspapers.  How did I ever subsist without them?  I have a little something coming up, but I left my notes for it at home, and alas, no internet there.  It's coming soon, though, never fear.  I do have a few thoughts, though.  I think that the more I learn about how the world really looks, the less rosy that it seems to be.  I guess I'm idealistic, in a lot of ways, but I like to think of myself as a realist, as well.  But I keep hearing about people doing really low things to each other.  I've come to this place where I just understand everyone to be human, whether or not they do "evil" things (I don't like that word anymore).  But what causes people to do horrible things to another human?  Or to an animal?  What causes people to rape, kill, steal, cheat, or lie?  What causes people to hate?  I can't believe that it's human nature.  I personally don't want to do any of those things.  I don't hate a single person in the world.  

And what about the justice system here?  It just seems to messed up, biased, and unfair.  How are there such vastly different sentences for the same crimes?  How can they let someone off on a plea bargain if they're guilty?  Why can't we just forgive people and give them second chances (at least in some cases)?  Why do we lock up petty criminals so that when they get out, they're into hard crime?  Why do we target certain races or classes of people and profile them as criminals?  Why does no one seem to care about "white collar" crimes as much as "lower crimes" such as robbery?

Bottom line, how come the world makes no friggin' sense?